Voice/EnemyMy voice is my enemy.It spills from my mouth in half-formed thoughtsand leaves me burning in front of my peers.It falls and rises to an off-beat rhythmthat only stays constant when I need it to change.I cannot control that dizzying madnesswith words formed too slowly to come out complete.A pace set with purpose to leave me behind as it flies off with Wendy to Never Never Land.And the words freeze in my throat.
High LifeI’m living the high lifeThe always on-the-fly lifeThe “Mama, please don’t cry” life“I’ll be home by first light”I keep up with the nightlifeAnd won’t run from any fightCause I need those wild nightsLiving the high life.
Gap SpaceRight there. In between words and breath.Where absence alone finds home and purpose.That infinitesimal divide within which existence is lacking.This gap space reality is somehow my own.
The Reason I Hold OnI think I’d die just to hold that fireTo feel the wealth of a soul’s desireAnd know the peace in comfortable silenceFreedom from my mind’s ceaseless violenceSkin meets skin as soft as feathersNude tones blending bodies togetherNo hollow aching to pierce my corePieces fit and the picture is formedScorn pours out as my demon stirs‘To cradle flame, one must touch it first’An unfair memory, a wayward grazeEtched in thought, bright pulsing for daysI wonder how I would sleep with a loverI can’t even share a bed with another.A bump of feet and I’m wide awakeCurl in too close and I start to shakeA grim chuckle rolls deep inside my chestBetraying how he imparts his ridicule bestA perfect manicure picks at slap-shod stitchesWhose hold on patchwork flesh is slippingSo I breathe deep and close my eyesAnd see the whole of my paradiseA sneering curse spits words of menace‘How can you cling to an imperfect seraph?’Lo
Getting to Know Me (Will Chase You Away)Are you watching me die?Is it making you cry?Or are you laughing your head offat the blood in my eyes?I'm screaming 'cause it's buzzingand I'm slamming my fist into my skullI'm daydreaming about runningand crashing face-first into a wallIf I'm dreaming, it's not happening,though I'm wishing it was real'Cause people are stupid,and I feel so useless,and I'm not sure how much longer I can deal.Help me, I'm not dealingSave me, I'm not healingI think I'm okay, then I'm twitchingAlmost under control then I'm flipping outI suddenly know that my chest is caving inAnd that damn black hole has replaced my lungs again.So I politely call you things you wouldn’t say to a priestWith a smirk designed to patronizeAnd vacant yet inhuman eyesThen leave you without warning and a laugh that makes you cringe.Maybe you found me or I can’t stay awayMaybe I’m screaming or crying or trying to BREATHEHalf of every word’s a lieBut a little bit is better(Or just
The Sky is FallingSoaked through and dripping by the inchI love the feel of it slipping off my skinI look crazy, I'm sureSpinning circles in a stormThese moments of happiness and funI only can find out of the sunWhere it's burning rays can't blind meand the eyes of the world can't find meAnd the music of nature colliding fills up my brainI feel sane, covered in rainThe wind's freezing, I'll likely end up sickBut I'm not leaving this blanket of pure blissSo long as the sky fallsI'll be catching it allThese moments of happiness and funI only can find out of the sunWhere it's burning rays can't blind meand the eyes of the world can't find meAnd the music of nature colliding fills up my brainI feel sane, covered in rainLightning crashes, I hear my lover beg“Come inside, please; you're scaring me to death.”My only answer's to laugh off my headReally, what could I have said?These moments of happiness and funI only can find out of the sunWhere it's burning rays can't blind
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