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Hope everyone's doing good. I know I keep disappearing, and I'm really sorry about that. I'm slowly pulling my life together, and that means accepting the fact that I just don't have the time to really write anything more than poetry and song lyrics. 

On a brighter note, I had my phone interview to work as a volunteer for BronyCon in Maryland yesterday, and I'm thinking it went really well. If I am selected, then I will finally get to attend a brony convention which will also be my first convention attended since before my accident in 2005. So, yeah. Wish me the best!

Now for the sadder news: My premium subscription ran out! *pouts* So far only one person has donated points to help me out, (a big shout-out to Sly-Regina for that), but I know deep, deep down in your hearts is the kind of love all artists and writers share for each other... and the knowledge that just 5 points per watcher would be enough to renew my subscription and save me from these horrid ads. 

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Jonathon McKaskle
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
.I am FtM transgender, pre-transition.
.I am a certifiable genius as well as certifiably mental.
.I enjoy writing as an outlet for the emotions which have no other being to cling.
.I write poetry, fanfiction, song lyrics, original short stories, and apparently crappy little intros.
.I am terrified I will stop aging someday and have to watch my loved ones grow old and die.
.I constantly crave positive attention in ways that chase off attention of any kind.
.I have a heart big enough to love so many with so few willing occupants that I feel just so empty.
.I want to be loved the way I love others, to call another's heart my home.
.I redefine weird with adrenaline-pumping glee.

...please don't leave me all alone.
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Hope everyone's doing good. I know I keep disappearing, and I'm really sorry about that. I'm slowly pulling my life together, and that means accepting the fact that I just don't have the time to really write anything more than poetry and song lyrics. 

On a brighter note, I had my phone interview to work as a volunteer for BronyCon in Maryland yesterday, and I'm thinking it went really well. If I am selected, then I will finally get to attend a brony convention which will also be my first convention attended since before my accident in 2005. So, yeah. Wish me the best!

Now for the sadder news: My premium subscription ran out! *pouts* So far only one person has donated points to help me out, (a big shout-out to Sly-Regina for that), but I know deep, deep down in your hearts is the kind of love all artists and writers share for each other... and the knowledge that just 5 points per watcher would be enough to renew my subscription and save me from these horrid ads. 

*shivers* The ads...
  • Mood: Artistic
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  • Reading: fanfiction
  • Watching: Youtube
  • Playing: all OVER social media
  • Eating: buttered bread
  • Drinking: Coke
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“Just get OUT!”

The words echoed in Korra’s head, made that much sharper by the panic and pain in Asami’s voice. All the pull and power of the Avatar meant nothing in that moment as the nurses finally manhandled Korra from the room.

She doesn’t want me here. The thought bubbled up from the deepest recesses of her mind, colliding with the memory of Asami’s face gone pale from distress, head thrown back and eyes clenched tight against sweat and rebellious locks of hair.

The door to the hospital room had been slammed shut, but Korra could still hear the agonized screams from her spot beside the door, back against the adjoining wall and knees pulled to her chest with shaking arms.

She doesn’t want me here. The words took on a physical aspect so oppressive that Korra didn’t realize Asami had quieted until a new presence vocalized its discomfort, and Korra was on her feet and metalbending the door open before she was consciously aware of her own legs moving beneath her. Immediately the two nurses that had previously forced her out were blocking her path, and Korra shocked herself when she began seriously considering trying to bloodbend through the human barricade, but then Asami spoke again and pulled Korra’s focus like a blast of lightning.

“It’s alright, please,” she called out weakly, and Korra felt her heart skip a beat at the smile on her love’s face. It was tired and cracked at the corners, but it was her smile – the smile Asami wore for her and her alone.

“Are you sure?” Korra whispered, her hand trembling as she pushed sweat-soaked clumps of tangled hair back from Asami’s still-too-pale face, having once more moved without knowing. “I just- I thought I heard…”

“You did,” another voice spoke up, though it took Asami struggling to look past her to make the Avatar turn toward the doctor. But she was so glad she did.

The doctor became background, blurred out behind the bundle of pink swaddling wrapped snugly to frame the tiniest, most beautiful face Korra had ever seen.

“Avatar Korra, Lady Sato,” the doctor spoke again, “would you like to hold your daughter?”
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And it slips beneath the skin
She pries it loose with fingers raw and thin
Her mind is slick with her babysitter’s sin
She sits impatient ‘til her parents leave again
And he breathes death into her ear
Stealing her heat as he draws her body near
Directing blood-flow while she inhales atmosphere
Her brain denied the chance to filter what is fear

She learns, This is what boys do
Just like keeping secrets and twisting what is true
Mom and Dad don’t really want to know
The body is a private thing, their questions are for show
Soon the child becomes a dagger
Soon the child becomes a dagger

And it separates the skin
Crying for it, her body’s cold again
She dreams of blood-flow on the night that she turns ten
A pre-pubescent wish for Woman to set in
And plots breed inside her head
Paranoia grown from preteen gossip threads
Idle comments are the form of poisoned threats
Start a rumor just to see how fast it spreads

She learns, This is what girls do
Just like crafting regrets and making up the rules
The truth is something no one wants to know
The psyche is a private thing, their concerns are for show
Soon the child becomes a dagger
Soon the child becomes a dagger

And it fills the skin with hate
And it propagates distaste
And it makes the daughter harder
And it swims through autumn waters
And soon the child becomes a dagger
And soon the summer heat will stagger
As angry words consume the laughter
A living lesion from hereafter
Dagger Child (Autumn Waters)
TRIGGER WARNING: This song contains references to child abuse of a sexual nature.

Originally written in Fall of 2007, these lyrics have sat in the back of my mind since then just biding their time.
Please let me know what you think.
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