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Night TerrorsI’m screaming asleepNight Terrors by *MacElf
Begging for my wounds to weep
I’m crying awake
Knowing nothing can change in me
And I scream
I’m counting time
trying to keep awake
Listening to the sounds
of my heart as it breaks
Knowing nothing
can match the hate
That I feel for myself
and everything that I fake
Nothing is ever easy as it seems
And my eyes drift shut as I drift into dreams
Sending one last cry before I sleep
That my voice won’t be tortured by unholy screams
I’m screaming asleep
Begging for my wounds to weep
I’m crying awake
Knowing nothing can change in me
And I scream
I’m walking blind
trying to keep in ste
Self-Destructive Social DesignsIt's simple to be terrifiedSelf-Destructive Social Designs by *MacElf
of everyone
and everything
When every time I
open my mouth
the Worst of me comes falling out.
And fears are always proven
true when you go
searching
for their hate
You bust your nose
on sharpened woes
before they
even know your Name.
Maybe they don't hate me.
Maybe there is no good defense.
Maybe it was my only strike
Against us ever being friends.
But I will bite my tongue in half before offering you a real amends.
The Thing That KilledYou bought these new clothesThe Thing That Killed by *MacElf
I wanted them all black
You gave me a new future
But I just kept looking back
You opened up your arms to me
I couldn't meet your eyes
You taught me how to tell the truth
I just told better lies
You gave me the gun, but I pulled the trigger!
I was digging my deep hole
You tossed down a rope
I grabbed on with both hands
Yanked hard to pull you in
You offered me freedom
A life so much richer
Yes, you gave me the gun
But I pulled the trigger_
You held out your secrets
I quickly looked away
I couldn't risk you seeing
The shadows in my gaze
You kept giving money
I kept taking love
It never meant a thing to me
It coul
Voice/EnemyMy voice is my enemy.Voice/Enemy by *MacElf
It spills from my mouth in half-formed thoughts
and leaves me burning in front of my peers.
It falls and rises to an off-beat rhythm
that only stays constant when I need it to change.
I cannot control that dizzying madness
with words formed too slowly to come out complete.
A pace set with purpose to leave me behind
as it flies off with Wendy to Never Never Land.
And the words freeze in my throat.
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